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March 22 To Michelle 记住该记住的，忘记该忘记的，改变能改变的，接受不能改变的Remember what you should remember forget about the things that you should forget change the things that you can change and accept what cannot be changed
The longest distance is between two people who did not know each other... Then one day, a coincidence, they met, they got to know each other, they fell in love, they felt so close to each other. Then, another day, they may not love any more. The couple who was so close to each other, are so distanced, even further than before. I know that this is a very old song by Stephanie Sun, yet it's amazingly classic and superb. I just can't stop listening to it over and over again. The soft melody and the soothing piano rhythm tells such an ordinary story in a wonderful way. I am addicted!
What I yearn for (Stephanie Sun) I asked you why she texted me and why you don’t explain the reasons to me but to maintain silence with your head down I shall believe that you love me too much to give me a lame excuse or to retrieve what we have had I wanted to ask why I am no longer able to bring you happiness but why I had the bitter smile and said that I understand it all Pride can sometimes hold me back, and make the journey so hard I pretend that I understand and it is because I am worried the truth is too naked feeling defeated is worse than losing you I yearn to share everything with you I yearn to share our dreams I yearn for the impulse to love you after every argument I remember that birthday, that song, that sky, that tight right hand, the warm chest Who remembered, who forgot I yearn for wordless affection I yearn for absolute passion I yearn for your painfull hug when you beg forgiveness I remember you were behind me and I remember I was shaking I remember the deep feelings, the most beautiful fireworks, the longest hug Whose love is too free, who has gone too far Who took my heart away, who forgot the promise that he made Who walked alone, who forget to care for me Who made our love so heavy, who forget to give the gentleness I yearn for the impulse to love you I remember that year, that day and that song I remember the sky with stars your tight right hand The warm chest I opened my hand I let it go, pretend that I am careless Who understands that I really don’t want to let go I love you too much, so I didn’t cry, I didn’t say a word
February 27 左邊 Left Side
I cry because I am unable to endure the loneliness that is the only time you comfort me I fear the sunshine is too brief and can be claimed by dark clouds at any moment I wait for a chance to be at my worst and my best I'm hopeful yet exhausted because I'm too scared of losing you even in my happiness I am full of sorrow
You hadn't realized, you always hold me by your right hand but your heart beats on your left The distance between us always cuts us off from intimacy, the pity of inadequate love
I extend my right hand, wanting to walk ahead with you feeling the heart that loves me beating on your left side I, who deeply loves you, believe you will understand
After I complain at your indifference I always hurriedly apologize You neglect me and then beg for sympathy making it seem as if I'm the one at fault The conclusion may be the most beautiful or the most sorrowful
I've prepared myself maybe your soul is too free and no one is able to reach it I've always believed that one day You will put your left hand in my hand and we will advance towards tomorrow The future is far, but it will come true If your heart is at the same side then I will be able to hear that you say "I love you"
February 12 绪
每次都是这样匆忙的赶来赶去，从12月到今天，回了澳洲和纽西兰，去了迪拜，返回英国后上了两周的班又匆忙的回国和爸爸妈妈庆祝新年。
虽然在国内只有短短的8天，旅途的疲劳和可恶的时差还没有消化；家里人的温暖呵护和海南懒洋洋会撒娇的太阳还没有好好的享受，小摊上香气逼人的烧烤和热带新奇怪异的水果也还都没吃够，也还没能来得及为爸爸妈妈做些什么就又离开他们了。离开的时候是带着些脆弱和感伤，和妈妈温暖的叮嘱。。。
其实，这样漂泊是因为觉得自己还年轻； 其实，我的心一直停留在家里，她只是在一直寻找着那幸福的开始和漂泊旅途的结束。
又想家了，想家带给我那熟悉的，确定的，体贴和信赖的感觉。。。移民的申请终于给批了， 可是还没决定要不要去宣誓。 不经意的看到了一本书里这样写，“爱做梦的人，只要回家，就接近天堂”。该回家了。 February 05 Chinese New Year at Hainan Island Picture was taken by Ricky Chang
天使 （Angel)
你就是我的天使 you are my angel
保护着我的天使 the angel that protects me all the time
从此我再没有忧伤 from then i no longer get sad
你就是我的天使 you are my angel
给我快乐的天使 the one that brings me happiness
甚至我学会了飞翔 i even learnt to fly
飞过人间的无常 flying all over the world
才懂爱才是宝藏 i learnt that love is the treasure
不管世界变的怎么样 no matter how the world changes
只要有你就会是天堂 it is heaven for me as long as you are around
象诗人依赖着月亮 like the poets rely on the moon
象海豚依赖着海洋 like the dolphins rely on the water
你像天使 you are like an angel
给我依赖给我力量 I rely on the power that you bring me
你是天使 你是天使 you are my angel
你是我最初和最后的天堂 you are my heaven
November 09 Mr Big
Name: Mr Big Nick name: Shitfor DOB: 15th Sep 2008 Home town: Newcastle upon Tyne Languages: Unknown Fav activities: I like to chew and poo, so what, spank me? Fav person in the world: I love mummy, she is so pretty!
October 25 At Sarah's ReceptionIt was a special moment Two souls unite and intertwine Joining and bonding together With so much love
I wish their marriage lasts forever
September 22 I am sharing my favorites with you tonight...I kissed a girl and I liked it...
This was never the way I planned
Not my intention I got so brave, drink in hand Lost my discretion It's not what, I'm used to Just wanna try you on I'm curious for you Caught my attention I kissed a girl and I liked it The taste of her cherry chap stick I kissed a girl just to try it I hope my boyfriend don't mind it It felt so wrong It felt so right Don't mean I'm in love tonight I kissed a girl and I liked it I liked it No, I don't even know your name It doesn't matter, You're my experimental game Just human nature, It's not what, Good girls do Not how they should behave My head gets so confused Hard to obey I kissed a girl and I liked it The taste of her cherry chap stick I kissed a girl just to try it I hope my boyfriend don't mind it It felt so wrong It felt so right Don't mean I'm in love tonight I kissed a girl and I liked it I liked it, Us girls we are so magical Soft skin, red lips, so kissable Hard to resist so touchable Too good to deny it Ain't no big deal, it's innocent ......
A corner of my wardrobe. I forgot to mention that I am a SHOEHOLIC and I am sharing half of my collection here with you I can't live without buying new shoes. ...Di September 08 BlurrrrrNothing is black and white, all shades of grey
I almost forgot about this principle in life
lost it and found it back again
Life is never easy to see
It's all shades of grey...
with everything in between.
If only the grey would turn black or white
but if they did, they only fade back to grey August 26 Sarah's Leaving!Second left is Sarah, my former colleague. Bless her... She is one of the nicest and kindest girl I've ever met. August 20 Can you?"Some people could experience their whole life in months"
Alex, The mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor,2008. August 13 Beijing 2008 （Picture is available from http://houston.china-consulate.org/chn/zt/ljzg/W020040814157477811578.jpg) I loved the director Yimou Zhang who used a scroll to show the history of China, from the invention for paper, gun power, the compass, until more recently when Chinese have been to space, the Chinese never stopped working hard to achieve the best results. From one hundred years ago when the Qing Dynasty received the Olympic Invitation and did not know what Olympic Games were, until today when the world is watching China and Beijing has given this world-class amazing show. This is only a start, Chinese history will be carry on the scroll through its hard working, proud Chinese people. Tremendous, beautiful, amazing, touching… Please enjoy this special moment and share the achievements with us. Those people who haven’t been to Tibet, who don’t know much about Chinese history, who are not respectful of other cultures or history, who are ignorant enough just to see a few pieces of news from CNBC or MSNBC, or who have heard a speech from the Dalai Lama so that they think they can criticise other people’s government… Take a break and get a life yourself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so proud for China and being one of the 1.3 billion Chinese! ...Di July 26 Beamish open air museumI don’t think I could pick a better day to visit Beamish open air museum than today. The sun was shining, birds were singing and I was dancing in this open air museum. Fantastic is the best way to summarise the experience at Beamish. Beamish presents itself in a living way and it is certainly the place where ‘the past comes to life’, I got carried away to the 19th and early 20th century by looking at people wearing costumes walking on the street, visiting and buying Victorian style lollies in original chocolate stores, travelling in town in old trams and on the 1825 railway with steam trains. The town is really well reconstructed, set in 1916, everything is in place as if it was still working. This is not just a collection of old stuff, nothing is out of place and you feel that the workers could return tomorrow. There is a pit pony still alive that worked in the pit until 1986, you can see him at the colliery. It was sad to think that most pit ponies lived and died in the pit, if they ever came out they were not able to work again. As well 96 people died in the mine we visited, a sad history. I went down into the pit where I listened to a miner tell how they mined and the lifestyle, and working conditions they had. I had tears in my eyes when I realised how little they got paid and how poorly they were treated. That explains why the trade union started here, in Hamsterley, with a few miners. I loved this museum, it is an unique experience, not only entertaining but very educational. I suggest to you all not to miss this great place http://www.beamish.org.uk/ …Di July 23 Life in Newcastle Upon Tyne (Angel of the North,http://image.guardian.co.uk/sys-images/Arts/Arts_/Pictures/2006/12/05/angel460.jpg) Before I start anything I have to tell this story. I went to have my eye lashes extension done in a beauty salon and it was a different girl serviced me, who is a real ‘innocent’ ‘naive’ ‘stupid’ ‘ little brain’ bitch! She flattered me with my glamorous looks then followed by a question “ do you feel good in designer clothes when you are going out? ” Bitch, I know what you are messing around about, I love designer stuff and it is not your business and if you are jealous, then TOUGH! Anyway, I better just ignore idiots who have to make a point in front of me that they are truly stupid and awful! I have moved to Newcastle for a few months now and I am quite settled now with my new job, new house, new friends, new culture, so much has happened in the past few months. Moving to Newcastle and getting the house in the countryside is for work but also a life style choice. Having lived in London for 3 years I wanted a change, I was sick of the steamy underground, the heavy traffic jams, the worry of having crimes all the time, all these things surround you. I wanted a change, to see more of the countryside of England, and not just another big international city, I want to explore the traditional English culture, the food, the life style. Well, my learning curve for Newcastle is like a straight line. First of all, that Geordie accent, oh my god! People here are sometimes super-duper hard to understand. I have no idea what they are talking about often, and this has created problems at work sometimes. Having said that, people in general here are far more friendly and relaxed than they are in London. Secondly, I have been shocked by the girls dress sense here. Well, teenagers here are extreme fashionable and that is a plus. But it makes me feel old to see them half naked in a dead cold night on the street, girls often dress in uniforms (policewomen, housemaid, nurses… come on, use your imagination!!), underwear with fishnet, all I can say is that “when I was younger, I used to be as naked as them on the street”… All my friends know that I love short skirts and tight jeans, trust me, I am not even competing at the same level and looking at these girls just made me realise that I am not 18 any more… though I am not envious of them at all. Newcastle is a party town, 24/7 and I am not even exaggerating! All the pubs and clubs are full all the time, and streets are crowed most of the times. 2 universities in town have definitely contributed to this. Restaurants are mediocre here, my favourite ones are the Vietnamese restaurant which serves fresh orange juice and the little Chinese café in China town. I miss London massively, I miss Harrods, theatres, Michelin star restaurants, and my lovely friends. Work is great, very busy though, and by the way some young doctors are very hot looking! I am concentrating on finishing off the house at the moment, then I want to get a Jack Russell, one as cute as Xiaodee, and then I am going to learn to fly a plane and learn horse riding… So much to do and so little time. Well, I am getting there. ...Di July 14 The old time has goneI was checking out Luna's blog today at work at lunch time and what she wrote in her last entry was really emotional. Luna talked about the changes she went through living in other countries in the past 7 years. From the first time she arrived in New Zealand alone to study until now she is living in Australia alone to work... Her writing not only brought me to this emotional mood but also reminded me that so much of what has happened in the past many years to her, has also happened to me and to our friends! I remember someone asked me a while ago what the best time was in my life... I would definitely say the period of time when I studied in New Zealand. Living in other countries to study is not just about achieving a University degree that will help you get on in life. Living and studying abroad helps you to develop as a person, expand your outlook on life, and learn how to socialise and integrate into other peoples' culture. I admit that it was difficult at first when I left China, we lived in a country with different languages, different culture, with people who have different values in their lives and who do not appreciate my sense of humour most of the time! But we were full of engergy, passion and excitement, we were so innocent and (sometimes) stupid. We made loads of mistakes and learnt from them (and then make the mistakes again). We worked hard, partied hard and we cried hard on each others' shoulders when we got homesick or split up with boyfriends. We definitely enjoyed not knowing the meaning of work as well.I will never, ever, forget that period of my life in New Zealand. I appreciated people who were so tough with me that they taught me lessons to be strong and brave, I also appreciated people whom I did not know but kindly offered me help and love, they influence me still… We've grown, seen, experienced and learnt so much. It has taken me a long time to get back into the mood to work for a living... |
Call me materialistic, I couldn't care less.
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